Happy 2012!

I was brownsing through and saw how some some bloggers and youtubers that shared about moments of their 2011. I thought that was really cool! I wanted to do something similar but realized that there is only one major thing is running through my head about 2011. STUDIES!

2011 wasn’t exactly a year that was filled with interesting events but I do learned ALOT! No regrets. However I think that there were some events that I should have made more effort capturing it down but did not.

Therefore this year I promised that I will try to take more photos and blog more often about my life. Hopefully at the end of 2012 I can have an interesting review!

I do read my own blog.

I am not sure whether people who blog read their own post but I do! Every now and then I will just go back to the past post and reread them. Some of them were funny, some of them brings back memories while many was “ What was I thinking when I writing that!”. Anyway it has been a journey of my life since I started this blog. Many times, I wrote and deleted them as I felt that It was not appropriate or I was just ashamed of my own writings. I wished I haven’t done that and truly wrote what I am feeling or been through. Thanks for all this years of reading and I hope I can write more frequent!

Inner strength

I have always admire people with strong inner strength or what people will describe it as will power. I believe that all champion has them. The better athletic will have them. Somehow I felt that people will do competitive sports at some point of their life have them. i’m not sure as I never did competitive sport in my life before. If there is any regrets in my life it will to be not playing competitive sport. I have been thinking about this for a period of time what really made a person better in learning than another. I tried to observe classmate that I deem are smarter and better learner than myself and try to come out with an explanation at how they managed to pick up things so fast and what set them apart from myself. Is it the intellectual capacity, or the fore knowledge or just plain hard work.  I don’t have an answer. And I realized that the more I grew up the more I am unsure of who I am. I think that is why it is always important to test yourself out. Try hard things, ask questions, do the hardest part, test your values.

For most part of my growing up years, I always want to be a leader, even though I am not. I always want to be the person that stand up, even though I am an introvert personality,   there is a deep desire to lead. When  you desire something opporutnity will usually follows and sure enough I am entrusted with “leadership duties” and I realized that I do not like the job. If given a choice I will rather stand back and be lead. But having said that, I found out that what I want all along is not to be a leader but to be lead by someone that I respect and look up as a leader and I found out that, that is missing in my life. Maybe subconsciously I began to think that maybe I can be the one, maybe I can be the one that people can look up to can bring them forward. Like any ideas, they are all perfect in our minds and pretty much flaws in execution. That is why nowadays, I tend not to be enthusiastic about being the one forward and hope that someone better will stand up in front of me. People that stand up to lead I will give them more grace as I know their difficulty too.

Stages of life

I was looking at my photo albums a couple of weeks back and I realized that people that I used to share my life with couple of years back were living very different life now. Almost half of them are happily married and many of them have kids. I thought to myself how a few years down the road can make such a big difference in life.

We call it the stage of life. It’s like the leap you took when you are in kindergarten  to start of your primary school education or for Singaporean guys a leap from a high school  student to a solider.  It seems like life has become automated that you know what to do when out of one stage.

I started to question these automation. Who defined all these stages? Why do we have to follow these road that is being pave out my a certain individual or policy? Have we grow so custom to people or society expectation that we forget and don’t question about choices outside the system.

Early this year, I attended a friend’s wedding. It was all beautiful and It seems like a fairy tale ending. i started visioning myself in their shoes and got nervous. I can’t do that. Not now. I always wonder how will it be like to step into the next stage of this marriage life. I got a feeling that it’s like the first day in primary school or the first day when you get enlisted in the army. It seems scary but after a while you will get use to it. this may be a sound argument but I don’t seems to buy into it.(As much as I want to)

My mum got married when she was 24 because of that she always think that she missed out alot in life. Maybe her life could have been better if she married late. She could have a better career and see the world. Every now and then she will always tell me not to get married early. “See the world, expose yourself.” Maybe because of that, subconsciously I will always tell myself don’t get tie down, traveled and see the world first.  No I don’t have a commitment issues. On contrary, I believe in commitment. Commitment to me is forever.  It is a promise that I will carry out till the end of my life.

I know I sounded like an idealist. But no I will not bow down to social norm.

Leadership

I was watching a video about DPP Taiwan Presidential Candidate Tsai Ing Wen a couple of weeks back. It’s is a Harvard forum that discuss about Taiwan: Policy Challenges, choices and leadership in the next decade. Someone in the forum asked her about how she will respond to traditional Taiwanese woman who had a family  and kids to care for to which she has neither. She excellently replied that if she made policies and decisions base on her own feelings she will be a very bad leader. That statement struck me as though a light bulb lighting up in my mind. I cannot make decision base on my own feelings. Someday I felt good, other days I felt bad. That shouldn’t affect my actions or decisions. People that depend on me shouldn’t be affected by how I am feeling. Rather I need to be clear headed and make decisions and policies base on peoples’ needs and situations.

A post from my bed

If I can turn back time, I wished that someone will tell me all this. If I knew this earlier I will never give up on designing. Maybe I will live a life very much different from what I am now. But there is no point looking back. Sometimes I felt that life is like a circle, things that you didn’t overcome, It will haunt you back in future. I think after going through all these, I have learned to bite through the bullets and just kept doing. And hopefully by shear volume that I will be better. Better than what I imagined I would when I first started out. It’s going to take a while. Till then bear with me for the lack of quality. I will be better. I promise.

Last Train service

Crunch Time!

Yet another sleepless night. I’m working on my producer production document which is due tomorrow.  Yawn~

Thumbs up

We all failed at some point of our life and what set a winner apart from a loser could be just a little motivation. Some are lucky to have people running beside them. Cheering when they fall, some don’t. But we can’t count on people everytime right? They don’t can’t be with you all the time. But guess what? We have ourselves to motivate ourselves all the time.

An interview with myself

I can’t believed that It was almost 5 years since I started out this blog. Never mind about the fact that the blog has never go viral, partially due to my insecurity on how people see me if they truly know who I am. I didn’t dared to publicize the blog fearing that if the number of people visiting my blog grew, I would have to be more carefully about how I wrote it. But the blog certainly grow with me, looking back what I used to thought was matured turned out to be immature. It was pretty amuse sometimes when I looked back what I wrote. Today I decided to re-look into what I wrote 5 years ago. Promise me not to laugh.

Then October 31 2006

Sengchong is the most famous and no 1, 19 years old, 6inch tall, designer in his street.This week sengchong.wordpress caught up with sengchong and finds out what make him ticks.

Who are you?
I am just a guy living in Singapore. I am actually a boring guy.

What do you do?
I am currently doing print and web designs. I love designs.I won’t say I am the best but good designs, art, and illustration just attracts me.

Where did you get your inspiration from?
Hmmm. (thinking for a minute before answering) I will say music, books, magazine, places, web, people, films. Basically from things that will allow me to start imagine things again. Dreaming is the key. Thinking of the impossible makes me feel excited.

So what do you do in your free time?
Movies, starbuck, music, games, books, TV. Basically what a normal teenager will do.

Are you taken?
Nah. I just broke up with my gf of three and a half years not long ago.

Sorry to heard that. Any plans of getting attach soon?
Not really. I am not so desperate. Furthermore I still haven’t really got over her. I think it will be rather unfair for my new gf if I get in so soon. Meanwhile I guess I should really enjoy the freedom of being single and concentrating on becoming the 5th billionaire in Singapore.

Do you make it a point to collect visuals?
Yeah. My room has tons of books, magazines, and post cards.

What equipments do you use?
My pc with 19inc monitor, my lousy camera, pen, pencil and paper.

If given that you have a chance to own anything in the world what will you be getting?
Well, I guess a house with a studio designed by myself. A balcony that sees the entire city. A 51 inch LCD monitor. A powerbook. Tons and tons of magazine and cds. SlR camera. And a sports car.

So What are your plans for next year?
Probably set up my own company doing projects related to designs. Labels, websites, prints, Magazine, etc. Get a car licenses maybe.

If given $1million what will you do?
Probably spend ½ million travelling and the next starting up a business.

Where do you want to go?
Big cities, small towns. Anywhere! Maybe other than tekong.

Current moment June 6 2011

I wrote this when I was at the worse period of my life. I was emotionally unstable and actually felt that the world was the end. I had a break up with my then girlfriend. I was full of pride and refused to let anyone see the venerable side of me thus resulted in me showing the cool side of me. It can be clearly seen from the way I answered those questions. At the time I inspire to be a graphic designer and wanted to set up a company that publish my own magazine. I was very influenced by design magazines and modeled the blog after it. Thus there were interview questions posts like this. In the interview, you can clearly see my innocent dreams and vision, that aspect I can said that I haven’t change and in fact my dreams go wilder and bigger. Why not let me ask myself the same question again and see if I will answer it any different and take a look again 5years from now. That will be interesting!

Sengchong is no longer 19. He’s turning 24 and is no longer as famous as he thinks he is. This week sengchong.wordpress caught up with sengchong and finds out what make him ticks.

Who are you?
My name is seng chong. Some knew me by my English name “David”. It was my baptism name which I gave myself as David was my favorite character in the bible. You can call me both. I’m alright with either. I currently study in Digipen Institute of   Technology majoring in Real time Interactive Simulation.

What do you do?
I still love design just that I don’t do it any more commercially. I took a step back from design after screwing up in freelance project. I didn’t enjoyed the experience of doing commercial design and thought that It would be best to leave it as a hobby. After army, I worked in a animations studio as a producer and decided to go back school after a year.

Where did you get your inspiration from?
People, magazines and movies.

So what do you do in your free time?
I don’t have a lot of free time but if I really have I would spend it on watching movies or meeting up with friends.

Are you taken?
Nope.

Sorry to heard that. Any plans of getting attach soon?
Nope. Seriously no time.

Do you make it a point to collect visuals?
Yup but not as much as before. Whenever I see something nice I will do it if not I won’t specially make the effort to do it.

What equipments do you use?
My dad’s lenovo desktop.

If given that you have a chance to own anything in the world what will you be getting?
A design studio!

So What are your plans for next year?
I will be still in school. I f I have extra time, I will start a couple of freelance projects.

If given $1million what will you do?
Keep it in the bank and live life as if I didn’t have it.

Where do you want to go?
I’m think of going US to work after my studies.