Monthly Archives: January 2011

The past few days I have been shocked by people standing outside the lift when the door open. They either stand too close to the lift or tried to run into the lift. These made me jumped up and shocked me for a split second.

So people when you are waiting for the lift, don’t stand too close to the door! People might just kiss into you or charge towards you like a rugby player the next time.


It’s 230am and I’m wide awake. It must be the coffee that I took just now. School is busy but things are still pretty exciting. Of course there’s still an ongoing battle with myself not too slack and work my ass off. I’m still adjusting to my new phrase of life but toying with the thought of. despite my busy schedule to make a website to sell some second hand stuff, to practice the guitar and to do a short film. Sometimes I wished that I have more time and resources and wondered how some people managed to squeeze so many things into their life.

I have been cutting down much of my social life to do my school work. There’s no life for people that enrolled into my course. It’s a 8am to 11pm daily battle everyday. Oh ya! I have just attended a friend wedding last weekend. It’s my second one in a short spam of one month. I guess I have reached the age where people around me are starting to settle down. During the wedding, I imagined myself to be in my friend’s shoes (he’s the groom!) and fear struck me. “I’m not ready for all this man.” I thought to myself. Facing the crowd, saying your vow all seem too scary. I’m too young for this. there’s still many things that I want to do! And yes, of course I’m still consider young in this era where people only start to settle down in their 30s. But back in my parent’s time, at the age of 24, you would be married with at least a kid.

Although I have several friends that want to get marriage young, many still prefer to have a stable career first before even thinking about the settling down. I was reading an article and it’s about whether is the marriage system is still relevant in our modern society. In the past, people got marriage because of economic purpose. Maybe I have watched too many accident soap opera and imagine people in the past married to get domestic or financial help. It doesn’t really matter if you love the person, after all, love can be cultivated. In fact in the past, people do not see their partner till the day they got married.

How about In the 21st century? of course, no matter how much we denied, we secretly look for the prefect one. Some even have a list of criteria. I have a couple of friends that do that. Maybe that’s why they are still single. Hahas. I myself even though do not write down a list but subconsciously will imagine how the perfect one will be like. But does that work out? I’m not sure. Should we be pursing the perfect one? Or should we be more open and accepting? After all having a partner is not buying a thing. Maybe if we can open up ourself to see the good side of everyone you might find that there are actually lots of eligible one around.

It’s interesting to see friends that are couple of years younger than me starting to date. I thought to myself that why date when you are so young? You are missing out all the fun and not being a wet blanket, from experience rarely things work out. Maybe I represent a more traditional mindset which is to date and get married and not just for the stake of dating. I know that dating can be fun but on the down side you can be heartbroken too. And trust me, having your heart broken for someone isn’t exactly the most fun thing on earth. It’s hurt more than anything and I won’t want to experience that again. Perhaps sometimes, I’m a pretty close up person. In a way, it’s my self defense mechanism in work.

Having said all these, what I’ve just typed might be rubbish. It’s 3:14am! And I have been working hard since 9am. I have a maths test tomorrow and yes I better get some rest. So see you guys soon. Hopefully I can come out with more things to write and of course my short film.

I just took my first math quiz and I know that I will definitely fail. It will be more of a blessing if I did not get a zero. I’m not upset about it cause all my classmate feels the same way which means that the paper is just way too difficult. The speed of the lesson is like a train zooming passes me and before you knew it, it’s gone. Lesson ends and you are hanging on the air wondering what had just happened. That’s bad. Real bad. My math professor philosophy towards maths is to have a more active approach towards solving maths problems. Which means that no ten year series. Come out with your own questions, tackle the unknown and drown in the world of algebra and numbers. So is bad. But I know that at the end of the day it will make me a better problem solver. And yes, I’m spending 4 hours on maths everyday.

This is the latest book that I’m going to finish reading. No, it’s not my textbook but it’s actually a pretty comprehensive book about electronics, mirco chips and the revolution of transistors and the introduction of several engineers, scientist and mathematicians that changes our world with the introduction and invention of  transistor, cathode ray tube and mircochip. And the world we live today consist of mircochip everywhere, TVs, microwave, refrigerator,ect…. It’s pretty informative and even for pure entertainment it’s pretty interesting.

I had English lesson this afternoon. It was the first lesson of the module. So the lecturer started by giving us a series of what is expected and what’s not. Then follow by an introduction of yourself using a symbol and what we hope to achieve at the end of the course. I’m not sure why, maybe after meeting too many people last year I started to get this phobia of opening myself up to people. I got abot nervous and didn’t know what to says. But the differences in me last year and this year is that, last year I’m not afraid and actually felt excited knowing new people in my life but wasn’t confidence and have the appropriate skills to do so. I will end up talking rubbish and living people confuse and maybe not knowing how to carry on the conversation. But this year, I felt especially unmotivated and started to develop phobia in meeting people. But the strange thing is that once I stepped out of comfort zone, I sounded confident and could actually carry on a conversation with ease. I think that’s pretty weird.

Anyway, I couldn’t come out with any symbol that represent myself and I thought, I’m a pretty complex person. I carry many roles in my life and in various role I used a different personality.  I can be a tree that is so stable that no wind or rain can blow me alway, or a wave that will swipe you up and down life with fun. It’s just too complex to say I am this kind of person. period. Well, I’m not. So in the end I said that I’m a dough. I’m not sure how will my classmate react to it. I wouldn’t care too much either.

That’s my initial. How cool is that.

I’m back to school after 4 years of work/army. If you have read my previous posts, I have wrote about my disappointment in failing to secure a place in Art media and design in NTU and School of information system management in SMU but unfortunately couldn’t managed to secure a slot in it. So I continued to look around for the various option that I could go into knowing that what I studied in polytechnic wasn’t good enough to further my career. I studied mutimedia in polytechnic. It was a fun course but it was a too general course. We learned about every aspect of mutimedia but didn’t specialize in anything of the discipline. I realized that at the end of three years we knew everything but couldn’t really do any professional work. This further confirm when I work in the industry.

So after looking around I found out about Digipen Institute of Technology. DIT is a school that is design to train game developer and artist. Even though it’s a gaming school but it reality it’s really a programming school or an art school. I took up real time interactive simulation which will focus alot on Programming, Maths and physics. I hope I can improve on my development skill in this 2 and a half year course. If time permit, I will tell you more on the happening in the school.